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This comic is amazing. Kate Beaton's 'Hark! A Vagrant' just makes me lol so much. Check it out!
AW YISSSSSS SOME MOTHA FUCKIN BREAD CRUMBS
I might upload a screenshot or two maybe when I get home, but I don't feel a terrible need to elaborate on something that is so self explanatory.
GO PLAY IT PPL :@
emorage inc!
you have been warned :@
I woulda thought if you give your number out, you're keen for going out yea? Especially when you sort of blow off your friends to chat with me in the first place! Why won't you caaaallllllllllll then?
I am sads, because this would've been perfect in so many ways; timing, emotional state, hotness... After waiting for a break like this, it feels like I just got slammed back to square one. To rub it in, my housemate's picked up twice in a week, and now looks like he's developing something with a friend of ours. I'm happy for him ofc, but then there's the jealousy and depression of not having that for myself.
GAH!
Incidentally, PC is fix'd! After like 5 months, I got the gfx card repaired, and a mate realised interwebz wasn't working coz the cable was crappy. So now I'm downloading the fuck out of all the anime I've missed in the meantime. Fullmetal Alchemist, Toradora and K-On! dl'd already, will work on Zetsubou series, and have watched first two of Railgun which were pwn.
Am playing a bit of Dissidia atm after picking it up last week. It's flashy good fun, but frustrating sometimes coz of the block/dodge system and how the computer can pretty much decide to negate every one of your attacks if they want. SIGH.
Am trying to avoid AION with all my heart. I flake off work enough as it is, without needing another excuse to stay up too late/sleep in/go to work late. BUT IT IS SO PRETTY I WANT IT.
Srsly just can't fkn wait for October to be over.
And if by some small chance, I get that call.... I'll pretty much flip over and be the happiest person ever. lol@me
Lots of change! About three weeks ago, I moved into a new house, started a new job, and basically now have a completely new lifestyle. So far, it's going pretty good.
Living with a new guy, Harry. We are simultaneously a good and a bad influence on each other. We bounce off each other and get some really cool things accomplished (like parties, clothing, bringing people together, doing the house up, hanging out), but it's wonderfully dangerous too, as we both spur each other on (alcohol, music, drugs, dancing, FUN).
Basically I'm spending the same amount on rent, ($150/wk) but now I have a room with my own ensuite, a sorta study room (which isn't rly useful atm, see below) a nice kitchen, a garage that's in the stages of being converted to a kick ass recreation space, central heating, it's a self-contained unit instead of an apartment, and CATS. It's so good not living with Dave anymore, as I just got sick of how he was fucking around with people in my life, and how I had no choice but to have it all happen around me and to deal with it, coz I lived there. Relief!
The new job is pretty cool. I'm one of the marketing officers at a university, and I have my own office, and I send out advertisements, organise events, do a bit of PR, student recruitment, edit publications, and sort of act as a contact for internal and external communication. I still have a lot to learn and get better at (in terms of processes and protocols, branding, writing style... basic levels of lazyness and procrastination), but the people I work with are really nice, friendly and helpful (and cute in a few cases).
Just gotta buckle down now and then to make sure I get the work done! Sometimes I get sleepy at my desk; I'm not sure if it's because of my eating habits, or just from starting at a screen for a long time, or if I haven't gotten into a proper sleeping pattern yet. Working 9:30-6 is pretty tiring dammit; specially when I'll get home round 7, organise dinner, and before you know it, it's 9pm. By that time I can't be fucked doing anything more, and just bum around, watch some TV or chat with ppl if I went out for dinner, and go to sleep to do it all again the next day. Because of this I'm behind on some things, but I'm sure I could change that if I could find a way to motivate myself in the evenings more.
Oh, yeah, my PC has stopped working at home. I turn it on, and it loads up Windows (Vista). I can do stuff normally, but then after a few minutes (like 1-5min generally), the PC shuts itself off. No 'shutting down Windows' screen, just completely off, as if you'd turned it off at the powerpoint. Only the power's still on, and the screen's still on (albeit on standby now), but the PC light is off. I don't really know what it could be, but I'm thinking it must be something like 1) a virus? 2) power supply problem? 3) corrupt HD or RAM?
I've never had to get a PC fixed before, normally a friend has been able to figure it out and sort it. So I'm not entirely sure where to take it, and what I can expect from repair people. I've been living off my laptop at home, but it's not the world's greatest machine; I'd really like my PC back and operational, considering I spent like $1400 on it like only back in Feb.
So there we go. Thought I'd pop my head in and let ppl know what's been up and why I haven't been checking or writing LJ in ages. I'll prob disappear for another little while again, but THE MORE YOU KNOW.
Peace out, homebrews~
<3
had a great night.. sorta started as quiet drinkws catchin up with frens, and then ended up getting quite drunken. Honestly, not like I've got shit on tomorrow... which is quite amusing.. I've suddenly entered an interesting era where I have nothing to do during the day times anymore. I just have work at the bar Thurs-Sunday night, other than that, nothing going on. After I get this publicity campaign finished for this performer done, I really have fuck all to do so that's kinda scary. If I have THIS much free time at the moment, God knows how much time I'm gonna have on my hands in the next few weeks.
Thanks heavens for Melbourne Comedy Fest in April, which'll keep me busy most evenings, especially with Kath away for 11 days. And maybe I have a 9-5 job in May, finger's crossed. But til then, it's kinda funny being in this period of the year and not having to go to class or anything. I forsee some interesting times ahead as I try and figure out wtf to fill my time with. It'll probably be stuff like catchin up with randoms and texting the people I shouldn't have obsessions over, making up silly events and getting heaps of people along to them (before goin to work drunk) and basically taking for granted what I have. Sigh.
I have an idea of what it should be like, but I don't think I'l ever be like that: par for the course. Instead, I think I'll have a good enough time with whatever happens anyway, so, wutevs. I have a good friend arriving this week from a year away in South America and Trinidad, so it'll be great to catch up with him!.
I'm really happy for Jkun, he seems to be really catching on great in his new life/job! I hope it continues so well for him <3 i just started playing Tales of the Abyss, and it's great fun... reminds me of how I never finished Tales of Symphonia. Also got the sega megadrive collection for PS3... whenever I play Sonic, I fail horribly, I wonder how badly James would chew me out for it lulz. Gogo you CM geek!!!
Ceri's working hard and it feels horrible sometimes to just do 4 nights a week and get by when she's doing heaps of hours just to get ahead. I spose I'm not really getting 'ahead' by doing what I do... but May might see thigns change. I'd rather not say stuff til it's all confirmed.. I'm superstitous! Until then, I'll probobaly just ramble on like a drunken silly person and post stuff :D
Yay~~~
btw: Dollhouse actually isn't that good. But I'll keep watchin coz I'm a sucker. 30 Rock however omfgilu
RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Tag 25 friends.
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun!
IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
I Bet It Stung
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
A Taste of Honey
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Someday, Someday
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Waltz in the 4th Dimension
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
It's Working
WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
I Sucked A Lot of Cock To Get Where I Am
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
True to Form
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Sweet the Sting
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Blaze (Honest I didn't light any fires)
WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Theme from Mission Impossible
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Rubbed the Lamp the Wrong Way
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Farewell Song
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Hold On
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Teenage Werewolf
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
No Phone
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
This Cocaine Makes Me Feel Like I'm On This Song
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Crystal Clouds
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Take A Look Around
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET
A Modern Myth
WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
1977
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
The Astronaut
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Jumpin Jack Flash
place holdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa woo
"It is unusual for credit to be changed following unsatisfactory completion of a subject. However as credit was granted in July and it is less than one year since it was granted, I have uploaded an additional 12.50 points. This means that you have met requirements for BCom. We will process your course completion shortly and you will be advised by the Graduations office about attending the next available ceremony in March 2009." fucking hell yes motherfuckers no more uni ever goddamn wooooooooooooooo i go sleep now with smile :)
got results back today, and I passed my last subject for university: 76%, H2A... which is like 2nd highest mark, so I guess you'd call it a Distinction in other terms? so now all i gotta do is make the uni pull some extra credit from my arts course to fulfill the commerce degree points requirements, and I graduate. Big. Sigh. Of. Relief.
of course that doesn't mean i'm any closer to a job, I've yet to finish my CV and send it out anywhere, let alone look at what's available. having a current job that's fun kinda stems the sense of urgency really, as all I have is a niggling voice in my head that I *SHOULD* get on with my life and get a new career started, there's another voice in there that just tells me I'm too tired after working til 5am last night, and maybe I should just play some computer games instead after another hour in bed.
i'm loving this guy called Peter Fox atm, he's got a great sound to him... almost like classical reggae hip hop... in German. This song is sooooooooooo fully stuck in my head right now, I loves it: http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=qdtLC
Guess I should shower n sleep, is 4am as usual after work and got housewarmin to go (lamb on a spit woo!) before work tomorrow D: ciao~
but afterwards, i got to thinking about what I'd like to do if I would play ffxi properly again. Getting PLD to 75 is still something I wanted to finish up, but already the thought of that is depressing. Pld is at 58 already, but I only have the feet AF... and pld coffers are fkn horrible (Garliage, Eldieme, Beadeux and Zvahl) so I don't look forward to doing any of that. Of course I can't do anything like limbus and nyzul coz of time zones and not being in a static, and even dynamis took 4 hrs out of my day.
So I'm figuring I'll pop into ffxi a lil bit throughout the month now that I've paid my $20 to reactivate, and if the mood strikes me and/or I get some help, maybe I'll grab some pld AF and lvl it a bit more, but I can see myself quitting again in a month or so. I got my fix, it was fun, but the actual GAME of ffxi doesn't really call to me. It was just easy, fun and familiar.
A few of my good friends are either out of town at the moment, or still in assessment period themselves, so I celebrated the end of an era by grabbin a nice dinner with Duncan and Phil, then we bought TWELVE LITRES of beer and took it back to mine, where a few other mates popped round and we watched How I Met Your Mother, which is fkn lofls. My sister came round with my dog Ella, which was awesomes, and we all just chilled out and relaxed, and later played a bit of LittleBigPlanet which Phil had brought. Oman, that shit is hilarious, specially when a lil tipsy. I think I spent 15 minutes just fuckin around with the funny expressions and doin silly stuff with my arms and pelvis, and stamping rainbow stickers all over Millsy's sackboy face haha.
So this week will be an attempt to finish off another CV draft, I need to send off some insight report to the bosses I worked for in Singapore/Vietnam (anyway have any ideas of which sort of companies in Vietnam, SEAsia, would be interested in SMS marketing? I have a few ideas, but wouldn't mind additional input)... and basically clean house a bit.
Got tickets for Bloc Party's Intimacy tour this Thursday! Ofcourse, that was on the idea that I thought I had the night off work... turns out I don't >:( So hopefully I'll be getting off early enough to maybe catch the last half hour... C U LATER HUNDRED BUX orz
Anyhoo, work's getting busier now that we have a balcony, which means I've got a steady income finally again... maybe buy a new pc next week! Is difficult tho, what with christmas comin up, so need money for presents... not to mention all the great games I wanna buy (Prince of Persia, Valkyria, Eternal Sonata, LittleBig, Fallout3, Tomb Raider... ARGH). But yea, work time nau, so catch up with you all msn sometimes ;oa
So yea, I been playin a bit of WAR coz friends are on it, but coz i had so much more free time, I'm a couple lvls above them, so taking a break for a while, maybe til after exams are all kdun. Gogo Witch Elf! So instead I've been playing way too much Fable 2.... like staying up til 6-8am haha. I started out all good and moral, but after i got about half way through the game, restarted as an evil bitch and had a ball of a time. I had HORNS :O Nothing more fun than wading through the Old Town massacreing villagers for exp and profit :3
I never really played the first Fable, though I always kinda wanted, which is why I found myself with a copy of Fable 2 totally bought on impulse after wandering around Camberwell with a friend after coffee. The way your appearance changes based on your eating habits, moral choices, and skill allocation, was really cool. The only problem is that as I beefed up my melee prowess, my girl became totally butch, which kinda got a lil ugly lols ; ; The dog is really, really freaking awesome.. they did a great job with the AI, as he runs around, anticipating where you're headed, growls when danger is nearby, fetches balls, does tricks for your amusement, finds buried treasures and chests for you, eliminating the often annoying RPG tradition of smashing every box and barrel 'just in case it has a potion'. The combat is fun and colourful, but it gets to a point about halfway through the game where you just start melting faces and you're never in danger. By the time I had a cleaver that drained health, and dealt extra damage, with a legendary blunderbuss that gave me extra defence AND dealt more damage too... lol you get the point. Slow time, run in and charge a massive AOE, then mop up the remainders with cleaver flourishes. Easy, but funfun!
Finished it last night, and the ending was kinda /yawn, but the most enjoyment I was getting from the game was running around buying up half of the town's property and increasing rents by 100%, while raising the old town mayor and making her my zombie bride, and getting slews of villagers to follow me to the temple of shadows where I'd sacrifice them to the wheel of misfortune. There's a few extra quests open up now, so I'll probably play it long enough to own Castle Fairfax, but after that idk... there's the temptation to play it through again but on the good side, but the sheer fun of being evil without remorse (yea, you can tell I always went Dark Side in SW games lol) will probably trump that.
ANYway. Almost had an emo relapse, coz with way too much free time on my hands comes the time to think about my lack of productivity, life, etc etc etc etc... coupled with a few dreams of a certain someone, almost got a bit blue BUT my sister just got back from her last 5 months away overseas, so time to start catching up with her and dumping all my shit on her to comfort me over :D
Work is not so busy, which is annoying, coz while getting paid by the hour is great, it's not very fulfilling if you're not really doing a whole lot... almost more frustrating to do nothing in an evening than it is to get totally slammed and fucked on. Hopefully with the silly season coming on, it'll really kick up soon... but the bar trade's been a bit quiet lately with the whole credit crisis thing making people tighten their purse strings a little I suppose... and Melbourne's also got the Spring Racing Carnival on at the moment so maybe people are just spending the money there and not extending it into the CBD afterwards, which is usually the case. It's good to know it's not just my bar being a bit quiet, as doing the rounds has shown a lot of other establishments in our proximity (these are well-known, popular bars too) are also suffering from lower patronage.
So the to do list at the moment stands at: rewrite CV, apply to bunch of places, try and get some interview experience (and ultimately a JOB) for next year, brush up on word/excel/powerpoint skills, SAVE money (lol gl), party hard but smart, and find someone to sleep with me for longer than 2 weeks. There's something else I thought of for a brief second, but it's gone now... owell. O... it was probably to make sure I actually pass my subjects so I get my degree, lulz.
I'm psyched tho, summer is gonna be awesome. I missed it last year coz Viet Nam was cold, so can't wait to hit the beaches, get wasted on the balcony and basically just kick back and relax with friends who'll be less highly strung once shit's off their plates. The anticipation of good times is great, and I feel like it's all gonna be alright. I just gotta keep it in my head that it WILL be this way, so long as I keep pressing on and actually making the effort to make things go well. I'm not much for seeking out new challenges, so if I can start working on that, I think the only way's up.
Finger's crossed!
p.s. there you go jkun, i posted now >:O means i dun have to update for another month nau OHOHOHOHO
p.s. jkun: not emo! just lacking self-discipline as always and frustrated!
p.p.s. arrrrgh i need money so broke Dx Dx Dx
So if you see me on MSN, it's probably my housemate just using my computer to listen to music. Am back in October!
Bai~ <3
[B is for beer of choice:] I don't choose beer, beer chooses me. I loves me some Asahi tho.
[C is for career:] Currently... bar manager
[D is for favorite Drink:] depends! juice is yummy
[E is for essential item you use everyday:] interwebz
[F is for favorite song at the moment:]'Back in Your Head' - Tegan and Sara
[G is for favorite games:] Soul Calibur 4 is havin a good run atm
[H is for hometown:] Melbourne, Australia
[I is for instruments you play:] Used to play guitar, percussion and trombone
[J is for favorite juice?] Orange, tho apple n blackcurrant is also win
[K is for kids?:] Can't wait
[L is for last kiss?:] would be nice for it to be my next kiss too..
[M is for marriage:] is that a proposal? D:
[N is for nickname:] ains, <insert>soph, rah-rah
[O is for overnight hospital stays:] only when I was born!
[P is for phobias:] i dun think I have an irrational fear of anything, except maybe doing work
[Q is for quote:] I can never think of quotes off teh top of my head, I'm seldom profound
[V is for vegetable you love:] well, tomato is technically a fruit so... lettuce yeeeea go salad
[W is for worst habit:] scratchin my nose prob
[X is for x-rays you've had:] three, I think? wrist, back and teeth
[Y is for yummy food you make:] anythin with pasta in it! gogo carbonara
[Z is for zodiac sign:] Aries
I loved the characters Rorshach and the Comedian best; their uncompromising values and principles, although they approach their morality from different perspectives, they share the same violent vigilantism, and unwillingness to let the complexities of humanity and its self-delusions blind them to the underlying simplicity of life. The irony of the two most 'insane' heroes of the book being the two closest to a true understanding of the world around them is worth cracking a wry grin about.
I won't write much on the conclusion of the story, as I'd rather not spoil something I found to be an interesting turn of events. However, it did make me consider one thing about the human condition, about how much we let fear rule our lives and our actions and the excuses which we fall back onto to comfort our own mediocrity. Do we really act out our lives as goal-driven beings, intent on realising our full potential? I really doubt it. There are so few people that could earnestly say they try their hardest, even most of the time. I don't think I get up every morning and go to work, hang out with friends, do whatever it is I do, out of an idea to further myself as a person. I think, like most people, I do these things out of the fear of the consequences of what will happen if I DON'T do them. If I don't go to work, I don't get any money. If I don't catch up with friends, they will forget me. It's just a routine to continue our existences, rather than evolve them.
I know it sounds a lil dark and emo like, but I think I'm trying to come at it more from an observationist, philosophical perspective. I'd like to think I could motivate myself to be a more pro-active, goal-oriented controller of my destiny, but to be honest, I'm not so broken up about the idea of just floating through and enjoying the view, so long as I'm allowed to keep my cynisicm and fatalism at the same time. A lovely little paradox that shouldn't be as easy to maintain as it really does, haha!
Saw an interesting clip of Bill Hicks earlier today, commenting on ignoring homeless people asking for money. 'Hey, screw you! You don't know what it's like to be broke!' the bum yells after Hicks. "Sure I do," Hicks replies, "that's why I work."
There's motivation right there. To do things, coz you know what it's like if you don't do them. For all the other times, I guess that's where mistakes are made.
Great graphic novel though, Watchmen. Can't wait for the movie.
Kominn heim
Why is it that the only people on public transport at 8am on a saturday morning are either dodgy looking bastards or really old people? Could it be for the same reason; that we're all still up coz we got too fucked up on drugs last night? ijdk
Last month was tough. Not on a work or education level; that stuff's been fine and dandy, going better than usual actually. I think it's interesting how many people are having a bit of trouble with relationships at the moment... but I think I've noticed it more lately because I've been paying more attention to the state of play given my own situation.
Finally, I think I'm getting ok with it all. Sure, I'm still thinking about what could've been, etc, but I spose that's only natural. But really, I don't cringe or hurt when I think back now... I'm just remembering now, not regretting as much, not brooding or lamenting. It is what it is. Que sera sera and all that jazz.
Is funny coz I was with Riahn tonight and she's trying to think about how to let go this french guy she's been seeing for the last 2 weeks. Ofc she doesn't want to hurt him, mainly coz she feels maybe guilty that she just doesn't want to keep seeing him, even though it's just been a short time and she's made up her mind.... and partly also coz she works with him. Struck an interesting parallel to what I just went through.. hopefully I gave the right advice. Don't give the other person an ounce of hope if there isn't one. Don't blame it on secondary factors that aren't the main contributors to your decision. Be honest and up front.
It hurt for me when I was told 'I'm not ready to rush into a relationship right now. Can we just have fun for now, coz you're lots of fun!'. The ambiguity and the hope that lies in that is horrible for someone who just wants to be with someone. It let's them believe things will be better down the track, that something (someone) will be available later, that they are still attracted to you. I can't blame people for wanting to let people off like that... you date someone, try them out for a while, and if you decide you're just not that into them then why is there this need to protect them? By doing so, you only string them along and hurt them more.
So I told Riahn to just dump him, as harsh as it sounds. To just say that, while it's been fun, that she just didn't want it to continue, that she just didn't see it going anywhere she wanted it to go. I wish I'd been told that... as bad as it'd sting at the beginning, it would've been great to know where I stood exactly instead of having to try and piece the puzzle of actions, reactions and emotions together until I just had to bite the bullet a whole month later.
So yeah, if you ever need to break it off with someone, don't be an ass and try and be nice about it. You'll save everyone a lot of heartache in the end if you just be frank and realistic; early on, if you're just not into them then say it... it's not the end of the world. But if you let them dream, if you let them hope, then they might imagine a world in the future which, one day, will be over.
A lost seafarer, alive
Has returned home
time for a new adventure
- Music:Sigur Ros - Sæglópur
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7qEivYkg
Yeah I keep dreaming
that I have it all
I'm always waiting
for that something more
I'm still craving
to have you by my side
I know our love is fading
but soon it will shine
And I can't see today
and I can't see tomorrow
your burning out my head
and in my brain it's going wrong
and I will live today
and I will live tomorrow
no matter what is said or done
even if it's going wrong
even if it's going wrong
even if it's going wrong
your burning out my head
I keep searching
forever in your eyes
I'll be careful
but soon we will shine
And I can't see today
and I can't see tomorrow
your burning out my head
and in my brain it's going wrong
and I will live today
and I will live tomorrow
no matter what is said or done
even if it's going wrong
even if it's going wrong
even if it's going wrong
your burning out my head
Even if it's going wrong
your burning out my head
and I can't see today
and I can't see tomorrow
your burning out my head
and I can't see today
and I can't see tomorrow
your burning out my head
and I can't see today
and I can't see tomorrow
your burning out my head
and in my brain it's going wrong
and I will live today
and I will live tomorrow
no matter what is said or done
even if it's going wrong
